Bills bills bills, who's gonna pay my telephone bills? Who's gonna pay my bills! (REMIX)
People of the world, you don't even understand how much I dislike 1st-14th of each month! Actually some of you get me, I see you boo.
Dude...Verizon wireless! (selah, pause and think deeply on that).
Dear verizon,I bless your full coverage network but HELLO I ain't your sugar mummy! How are you gonna charge a girl dash amount of money every month? Well...well...well, guess who's only using wifi now? Oh yeah I did that! BOOM.
Sincerely,
yours truly. (And that my friend is C-L-O-S-U-R-E)
Sincerely,
yours truly. (And that my friend is C-L-O-S-U-R-E)
Verizon aside, seriously my gym membership has been a total and complete waste!!! This right here is completely my fault and I take full responsibility. I guess aiming for hulk abs was way way out of my pocket and comfort zone. Next year I won't sign a contract! For heaven's sake I did contract law (which I hated) and yet it still surprises me how often I find myself in these disappointing entanglements? I shall extend grace to self and forgive self.
Speaking of gym, am I the only person always getting picked on by instructors for not doing something right? There's got to be a small army of us picked on-ers out there. Anyway, the trick to overcome an instructor's unsolicited attention is simple. Listen attentively, this works or your money back.
Whenever an instructor picks on me and uses his small microphone for the entire class to SEE me (like I wasn't struggling enough), I just look at someone else with this confused look that reads 'he better naht be talking to me coz my work out skills are on fleek...*taps weave*' try that out. You just have to take on another personality for such situations.
I shall not drift.
Growing up is a trap if you haven't figured that out yet. I miss the days I would spend half my money, (I lie), 3/4 of my money on frivolous purchases and an endless supply of Chinese take out! I love Chinese food, (am such a cliche) but I will naht go to China coz my home slice spoilt that experience for me. This is what you get when you live vicariously.
Drifting drifting...
Anyhow...
Now that I am over a certain age, *plays sad music and sings goodbye to childish ways* am planning Verizon, I'm speaking Verizon, I'm sleeping Verizon! How expensive is hair though? Am making a decision to go BOLD! *slap slap get it together* I take that back.
As much as my sister and I sit down and laugh at my transition into adulthood, it has it's perks. Like absolutely owning who you are and not being ashamed of it, going to Duane reade and using your credit card to pay for a 99 cents plus tax item just to get cash back because of course that's what adults do.
Yes, being an adult makes me feel like you can't tell me nothing with the exception of passport control in any given country, I will listen, and I will listen good.
Being an adult is so bawss (urban dictionary actually has a definition for that). You can live on less and you can live on more, you just make it work. Your life is not in order but you're doing it, you're not unsteady, you're taking steps, some mastered, some frightening, and mostly uncertain but you call the shots babe!
What's even more comforting is that no one has it all figured out. We only know for certain what is now, and sometimes that is enough.
PART 2
For my mind friends
Dear friend,
I've been in such a good mood lately, can you tell?
Here's one verse that I've been meditating on here and there and it's refocused my mind. What are you believing for that is totally hopeless in the natural? Keep believing even when it doesn't make any sense, it's okay to have people laugh at your dreams or your childish like belief, not everyone understands faith. But even when you don't know the hows and the whats and blah blah blah, keep the faith. Even when you feel unworthy, know that God's love won't be undone. Keep the faith. Some days are going to be bad, I know that, and faith will seem silly but I promise you, you won't regret it.
Jeremiah 32:16-19 (The Message version) and it's so beautiful... 'Dear God, my master You created earth and sky by Your great power, by merely stretching out your arm! There is NOTHING You can't do. You're loyal in Your steadfast love...' That verse. Now go be awesome you little rebel you!
Your mind friend.
X
